ART HEADS
I have placed here a short story I wrote about a soldier friend of mine who was severely injured whilst serving in the Australian Army. His injuries left a permanent impact and I hoped to reconcile my feelings about the outcome of knowing someone well as a friend then they become a friend who isn't the man you once knew.
A SIMPLE VISIT
I hadn’t seen RJ since the
accident. Little resembled of the man I once knew. RJ’s mind was entombed in his
emaciated body that was held inside a sack of drooping skin. The impact of his
fall from the sky had crushed RJ’s skull turning his good looks into a poorly
ploughed paddock. At his bedside I
didn’t move because I was afraid. I wasn’t sure RJ could still talk. He was
unable to breath, eat, shit, piss, talk, smile or laugh. Life as he knew it
ended the moment he left from the hercules. At ground zero his twisted body was
meshed with and was tightly wrapped up in his silk shroud. Buried before his
funeral. Bar talk indicated that RJ’s head was the size of a melon. Now it was
a shrunken pea.
RJ may have
smiled because a patch of muscle quivered above his lip. His mother, Nannette
stood by a rocket waiting to blast off. Three facts reeked in the ward, colostomy
bags, RJ’s acceptance and Nannette’s obnoxious positivity. I guessed that RJ didn’t
want live as a mullet.
Nannette’s
double plus propaganda inspired newly graduated nurses and ward visitors to get
RJ walking again. Though, I knew insensitively RJ was one ‘a fucked unit.
Nevertheless, I wondered if he could still smoke because RJ like me smoked the
light fantastic fanatic. But, from the tubes, wires and pumps regulating his
body it didn’t seem likely. Nannette spent six months not only nursing RJ but
also spamming his interests and sticking it to the man. She was resolutely,
absolutely, fundamentally and doggedly driven to change RJ’s circumstances.
The doctors and
specialists consistently reminded Nannette that RJ’s survival was miraculous in
itself. Yet, Nannette felt hope would transcended their frail human endeavours.
I sensed wretched desperation but my ignorance utterly failed to understand her
torment and desolation. A slight sociopathic bent disengaged me from the swill
of emotions that others found meaningful.
Nannette watched
me closely. She read the signs a doubter and recognised the fear flashes in my
eyes. On this point she was ice cold and all she wanted to do was rid the room
of the ogre. To stir the mix I intermittently broke contact and peered out the
window. It broke up the pattern recognition. She moved closer to claim RJ’s sovereignty.
I was thinking about how could I suffocate him?
I pushed mum and
leaped onto the bed and twisted RJ’s lifeline then smothered him with a pillow.
I was oblivious to the bellowing chaos around us. Nurses, doctors and visitors
clutched, scratched, kicked, groped and punched me with hysterical impunity. I collapsed
fell from the bed bloodied and bruised but managing to smash the hissing
ventilator.
My thoughts
drifted down from the beautiful cloudless sky. In the near distance a row of Blue
Gums seesawed soothingly in a guileless wind. The landscape tempered my
outlook. I smiled and realised that RJ’s life was his own. That was it. I shared
a joke and left never knowing what became of them.
Lady Dangling
In the military there is a lot of standing. Standing around doing
bugger-all, standing at attention, standing down (return to regular duties, going
on leave), standing orders (follow the rules) and standing to (at dawn &
dusk all soldiers stand weapons ready facing out into the bush, jungle, desert
or landscape as a way of preparing the troops for attack. Apparently it’s the most
opportune time to do so, however, wouldn’t the enemy be standing to also?).
In Iraq privates and corporals (senior NCOs and officers were excused
due to rank) were tasked with providing security 24/7. This required each
soldier t perform a two-hour shift of guard duty. We stood in a hole with ] a
Mag 58 (heavy weapon), our personal weapon, communications as well as a heavy
Vietnam era night vision scope.
The two-hour guard night shift consisted of a one-hour gun pit shift (on
your own) followed by another lonely hour walking the perimeter fence. It was
always reassuring to walk around our camp and come to the end of the wire! Our
razor wire simply ran out and I always wondered why bother in the first place.
Was it a ruse to fool the enemy, whoever they were because we didn’t have a clue.
He said, ‘Fuck off Daly and just do the job.” (he never had to do them).
I was never comfortable or relaxed and couldn’t wait to get drunk out of
my skull at the very next opportunity (unbeknownst to me this was endless weeks
away in Cyprus).
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